out of my mind

Please forgive me if you think
I’m cold to your bones
And it seems like
I hate you with all of my guts
When I walked out of that door
But really, I don’t hate you
What can I say
Tonight is just too dark
No stars sparkling out there
The problems came to stay
I wanted to scream
I wanted to shout
And I don’t know what to do
And I don’t know what to think
And it kept coming for more
It was overflowing on my back
And it can’t seem to get off
I felt like a hunchback
I’m sorry if I pushed you out
I was way out of my mind
I really didn’t mean to seem like it
And I hope you’d understand
And when it happens again,
Just don’t let me walk
Out of that door
Just hold me tightly and tell me
Everything is going to be okay
And that you understand
And I promise you
That tonight won’t be as dark
As it has been if you do
And the stars will smile at us

By: Ruthe-Ellen Auman